Yipes and Yipee!!

Well, well, well....first job...under my belt!!

I did it! I just quit my job. wo-quit! and I'm excited.

I didn't know it was possible to sweat that much...

Hot Yoga=Intense.

I tried it the other day. After 5 minutes I couldn't find a dry spot on me. I waxed and waned between nausea and light headedness. My eyes were stinging and my legs were burning. Breathing itself was difficult as the air proved heavy and thick.
Little to no reprieve was granted for 90 minutes of this self-induced torture. "Why the hell am I doing this" resounded in my head multiple times throughout. oh right-the necessity of that question warrants the answer.

pshaw

5 yr old patient: "Damn, she got a lot of stuff on her head"
me: 'scuse me?
patient: "Damn..?"
me:let's not say that
patient: oh. "Oh my gawd?"
me: yeah, how bout "Gracious!"

teaching children to be 85 year old women one lesson at a time

The Nashville Flood. May 2, 2010.

I brushed my teeth with a q-tip last nite.
Creative-yes. Ideal-no.

I wonder where my toothbrush is? I wonder where my head is? All this moving around has got me in a tizzy. I've slept in 5 beds in the past 10 days. Vagabond style. Not tramp style.

a + b =c

There's a book on my borrowed nite-stand. It's entitled The Meaning of Life. I'm tempted to find out the answer.


What if life was that simple? What if instead of Science, Social Studies and Math we took The meaning of life, Being cool, How to not get your heart broken, etc. Would that take all the "fun" out of the lessons learned along the way?


I'm often caught searching for that quick explanation and answer. To become this way I need to do "this", I feel this way because of "this". Oddly enough, I'm discovering that a quick explanation isn't always right, or moreover it's only a glimpse into a larger reality. "Life's a dance you learn as you go?"...maybe so. Or maybe, life's a dance you learn as you let go. Let go my desire to control, understand, and be in sole charge of. Actually, it's sort of refreshing when I re-realize that my little brain can't come up with the answers and meaning to everything. There's something freeing about that. Knowing that ultimately, He is the only one who has that all figured out.

"R"unning

I've been neglecting a relationship in my life as of late.

You see, "R" and I haven't spent much alone time together lately. We are still hanging out quite a bit but in all actuality it's only been in group settings. While in Seattle we rekindled our alone time and I realized how much I'd missed it. I drastically went from spending 5 days alone with "R" for several months, broke up for a little bit, then re-established our relationship with the guidance and support of a group. But I think it's time I take others out of the picture. No, not completely, but I've realized it's become more about the group than about just "R" and me. I've not been able to nurture the personal side of it. So...tomorrow I'm setting a date with "R" and nobody else.