On Repeat

Happiness is just outside my window
I thought it crashed, blowing 80 miles an hour
Happiness a little more like knocking
On your door, and you just let it in


Happiness feels a lot like sorrow
Let it be, you can’t make it come or go
But you are gone- not for good but for now
Gone for now feels a lot like gone for good


Happiness is a firecracker sitting on my headboard
Happiness was never mine to hold
Careful child, light the fuse and get away
‘Cause happiness throws a shower of sparks


Happiness damn near destroys you
Breaks your faith to pieces on the floor
So you tell yourself, that’s enough for now
Happiness has a violent roar


Happiness is like the old man told me
Look for it, but you’ll never find it all
Let it go, live your life and leave it
Then one day, wake up and she’ll be home
Home, home, home



-The Fray

Song Lyrics

In tenth grade I had an English project in which I had to analyze the lyrics to a song of my choosing. I chose Sarah McLachlan's "In the Arms of an Angel". I got a B-. I was offended...wasn't the project about what the song said to me?

I have a "gift" called "being able to listen to the same song on repeat for hours at a time". This isn't really a shareable gift, as it often is more of an annoyance to others when I push the back button for the 10th time.

I sometimes like to play a game called _"what does this song mean?". I'm sure you've tried playing it before-if not I strongly suggest it. It's interesting to hear the different assessments and messages that people glean from a song.

I like to think that the songs all come from a place of joy, or happines, or anticipation, or sorrow, or fear, or confusion...that all songs have a personality breathed into them from those who wrote them. Tyring to figure out that place is what the listening is all about.